I knew this all was going to happen..
But still, why does it hurt so badly?

If you haven't guessed, the wonderful 28 hours that I was granted with Saki has now ended..

I never thought it would be this hard..
I feel like I'm loosing her for the first time, again.

Like how I felt when she told me she had decided to leave and live in Ohio.. For good..

I feel like that, knowing it was all going to happen.
It's not like I could've kept her any longer..

So anyways..
ON A LIGHTER NOTE..

A recap of everything that went on (like anyone cares):

At about 3:30 PM yesterday, everyone startesd getting here. First was Emma, then Neko, then Tsuki.
Due to previous complications, Saki was having trouble getting here, since her mom was sleeping around 3.

So we're all basically standing at the door watching AFV when we hear a grumbling noise. Like I figured, it was Saki.

As soon as she opened the door, I tackled her. This was folled by everyone else, as we left the door wide open for the nice, cold air to get in. But who cares.

Everyone put their stuff down and then Saki decided she wanted to go for a walk around the neighborhood.
And everyone knows when you're in our neighborhood, you're bound to see weird stuff, especially when a random group of teenagers are walking in the middle of the road with strange weapons..
[Keyblade, flag, Urahara cane, stuff like that.]

We took a bunch of random pictures, which I'll probably upload on somewhere later..

Then we headed home and played some Guitar Hero, played a little bit of Soul Caliber, and watched some Youtube stuff while we ate some AMAZING Hungry Howies Pizza and Howie Bread. It was amazing.

Then Saki wanted to go outside and look at the moon, so I carted my CDs and CD player outside to dance.

We had a mini rave in my driveway.
You know that's amazing. =]

Then, Emma and Saki get a stupid idea to climb to the top of the hill behind my house (there's a factory warehouse up there, and so we do it all the time) and roll down it in the dark.
Preeeeeeeeetty stupid idea, but they went through with it anyways..
Emma rolled down, lost her cell phone, and stopped in a giant pile of random weeds and misc brush. It was funny.
Then Saki rolled down, lost her ring, and fell into a thorn bush.
It was pretty funny.
Emma rolled down again so Saki could see, and almost fell into the same thorn bush.

It was pretty amazing.

And then we randomly roleplayed Loveless outside in the driveway.
We turned on Barbie Girl and Soubi strutted his stuff, lawl.
And whipped Ritsuka with his pink, fluffy scarf. =]

Then we went back inside since it was so cold and played some more Guitar Hero and watched random stuff.

And after that, we played spin the bottle truth or dare.
I dared Neko to stick sour skittles in her nose.. Her reaction was amazing.
Then we dared Emma to drink a bunch of random stuff mixed together and she threw up.
XD
YEAAAAAAAAAH.

Then we played Hide and Seek.. in the dark.
Which was.. well.. interesting. XD

Then we watched some TV and stuff while laying down on the floor..
Neko kept falling asleep.. and we kept waking her up.
Which made her pissed, but we didn't care.

Then I had Tai call me, and we talked for a little bit while everyone fought over the computer and watched TV.

Then Neko was still sleeping, so we all threw random shit around the room on top of her..
And she continued to sleep..

Then when I was randomly flipping through the channels at like, 2AM, we found this movie where Barbies were having sex on Comedy Central.
..Disturbing, yet HILARIOUS.

Finally, Neko woke up, and so we all hung out and watched some TV for a little bit.

Around 3:00ish, Neko and Emma decided that they were tired of trying to lay on the floor and went up to my room to sleep.
I gave them extra pillows and blankets, put some Gackt on, and tucked them in. =]

Around 3:30ish, Tsuki, Saki, and I finally called it a night.

Then, at 9, Tsuki's mom called, telling her to wake up and take a shower so she could go shopping with her Grandma Sue.
So we all woke up.
Funny thing was, Neko and Emma were still sleeping.
So then we decided to go up there at like, 9:30 and jump on the bed, turn the lights on, open the curtains, and wake them up.
XDDDD

So then we all basically came downstairs and watched some TV, played some DDR, watched random internet videos, farted around on the internet.. and all that wonderful stuff.

Tsuki had to leave around.. 11ish, I believe.. So we all said our goodbyes..

Then everyone got hungry and we fixed a shitload of ramen. XD
So we ate outside, barefooted, and recorded random videos. XD

Then we carted out the CD player and CDs and randomly danced and stuff around my driveway.
It was fun.

Then Emma had to leave to go to a birthday party..

And then Neko and I stayed with Saki.
Her dad had decided to invite us to go to the mall with them, and bring me home.
Problem was, when they got there, we had miscommunicated with them, and only one of us could ride in the car with them.
Needless to say, Neko's dad was amazing and drove her anyways, so I could ride in the car and actually go.

Me and Saki went to Ross and found random stuff and tried it on..
And I tried on a few formal dresses that were relatively cheap..

Then we went to the mall, where Neko was waiting for us..
We walked to Claire's, so Saki could ask if they did nose piercings, and found out that they didn't.
We went to Piercing Pagoda, and they said the same thing.

So Saki was uber upset that she couldn't get her nose pierced..
Then Angel got made at her and gave her a little pep talk while me and Neko talked to Dakota, who we found randomly walking around the mall looking for his girlfriend.

Then we met Saki's dad, and decided to eat Subway.
Neko and I stayed quiet while Saki, Angel, and her dad sort of argued.
Saki ended up getting away from them by asking if we could walk ALONE around the mall.
They then reminded her of the last time she went walking around by herself, which was when she met Steve. You could easily tell that they didn't trust her. I doubt they would've let her go if it wasn't for us being there.. He acted like we had planned Steve to meet us down here or something. I mean, JESUS. -_-;

So we walked around and stuff, and went to the bathroom so Saki could calm down a bit.

Then we did our usual walk around the mall and went to the bookstore and game store..

Then we went to the arcade [ Candace randomly showed up too.. XD ] and I played a game of DDR.
For some reason, I don't think I ever attracted a crowd so big......
People were gawking at me from the window outside (the DDR machine's next to the glass wall, which makes it very funny when random passerby gawk at your skillz) and people started piling in the arcade to watch.
It was pretty awesome.
Only problem was, in the middle of my game Neko had to leave.

Then for the ride home..
We stopped and got gas at a random gas station..
Then on the way home, Saki reminded her dad that he was supposed to bring me home and told her that they were just going to drop her off first and take me home on their way to Knoxville..
Which was okay.. but yeah.
Saki showed me where "the incident" happened on Thursday..
And then we got to her house.

We all got out of the car, and I stepped out onto her driveway.
The area still smelled the same as it had from the last time I remembered.. [ creepy, isn't it? ]

Saki got her stuff out of the trunk and came over to hug me.
We hugged for a minute, and all of a sudden I was silently crying.
She pulled away from me to leave, and we looked in each other's eyes..
And I just broke down.
I cryed.. I felt like I was going to faint or something..
Like this overwhelming pain like I would never see her again or something..
She held me close, and started crying.
So basically, you just saw these two girls in the middle of this driveway crying.
Her dad and Angel stayed silent..
I guess they didn't think I was so close to her..
Then we had to break apart so that her parents could take me home..
And well..
Yeah.

Her parents got back in the car and took me home..
On the way, they asked me some questions about me and my family and stuff, trying to get the whole thing off my mind.
Didn't work so well..

However, they did tell me that if it was okay with my parents I was always welcomed up there for a week or something, if they wanted to let me stay with them.
Which made me pretty happy..
Until I realized that if I did that, I would have to leave Saki, not her leave me...

And then they dropped me off and all that jazz..
And I just walked into the house, silently, tears still streaming down my face..

And for the last hour I've been sitting here crying (except for when I go near my parents, I dry everything up and act like I'm perfect, aka: EMOTIONLESS)..

I'm just really confused why this still hurts so much..
I know I'll get to see her again, and pretty soon..
It's not like I'll never see or talk to her again..

I guess I'm afraid something else'll happen..
That "worst case scenario" thing..

It better not.

I swear to GOD.
It better not.